i keep reading all of my friends blogs and they seem so in depth. i almost feel selfish at times because i just talk about my problems. though sometimes i feel that this is the only way i can express myself because then i don't have to worry about saying it outloud.
things have been so messed up lately. i didn't know what lonely was until my parents started using me to get back at the other one. it really hurts. it seems like sometimes no one cares. i love being able to help people, but for once i wish that someone could help me, save me from all of the problems. i don't know what to do anymore. i have met a couple of really great people at west linn, but they aren't brianna or tyler or evan. i can't forget them. though sometimes it seems like they have forgotten me and i don't blame them. it has to be hard for them holding on when i live 70 some miles away. i guess that is partly why i was so shocked when tyler asked me out. it was so something i didn't expect. i didn't think he would ever do that and i didn't think he would especially after i moved. it was just so out of the blue, but it has been so great.
for the first time in a long time i feel safe. he makes me feel safe and beautiful and cared about. all of my close friends love me, and i think if it wasn't for them i would have lost my mind. things have been so screwy up here that withought the craziness of ty, bri, evan, chels, terrell, and cam i would have just fallen into myself. but i am trying and for now that is the best i can do. well now that i am starting to feel a bit better i just want all of those out there that i love and hang out with i am always here for you when you need me. i never want you to think that i don't care because i always will. just please don't forget about me during the process.
mo
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Uh...pretty much what he said and yeah i was looking at everyone else's blogs and they had all this in depth stuff on their blogs. I have a previous post on mine about that...so i know how ya feel anyway. Let me put it this way how could i forget you when you text me every 5 mins! jk I could never forget you none of us could. You were one of my first best friends that has stuck it out with me for more than a year. I congradulate you! I'm not an easy person to get along with I admit. You've have changed my life for the better and Don't you ever forget that! I love you so much and don't forget that either :) love you lot's
Bri
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