Sick

I hate being sick. It has been a really long time since Ihave been this sick. I missed some school today and it was really nice to sleep in, but I hate trying to get caught up later. It sucks. Luckily I made it in for Calculus and Ap Bio.

Hmm let me see. Not a whole lot is going on in my life. I am trying to eat healthier and work out more. I am not happy with how I look and I decided that the only way to change that was to do something about it. It kind of sucks though, making sure you don't eat too much of the things that taste really good....and eating more vegetables. lol. I had a guy ask me out on a date but I am so confused about my feelings on two guys right now that I didn't want to deal with anything else. I need to get my life sorted out before I can think about anything else.

I miss my friends that our at college. It is weird because I see on facebook all the I miss you and want you to come visit me messages and so on and I realized I don't get any of these. I guess that is life but it still sucks. I got a few of my college apps done, but now I have to finish everything else that go with it. It is kind of a disgusting process. I also need to get all of the scholarship stuff done and filled out.

So yeah that was really boring and now I am going to go study for my AP Bio test because I have been putting that off for a while. Well love you all.

Monica

tonight

well i had a blast tonight. aaron, matt, and bob came over. we went to dinner at the tangent harvest festival, which is an adventure all on its own, and then we went four wheeling and watched she's the man.
i had a great time with them. it is so relaxing and laid back and i love that. i don't have to worry about anything because they love me for me and except me for what i am. it is hard though because i am the only girl when i hang out with them so going out on the four wheelers and stuff i probably play a little harder then i should. as of right now the whole right side of my arm is num due to stinging neddles, but it was totally worth it.
this blog is all over the place because that is usually what my mind it doing. i am going to have to figure out what to do. it is wierd liking a guy and not caring what steve does anymore. i was realizing how i just don't think about him anymore. he doesn't cross my mind anymore. it is actually really nice, and in other ways completely confusing because it means that i am starting to be happy with myself and not care anymore. which i know is good but it is still a bit wierd.
too bad the guy lives in albany. i seem to be attracted to guys that don't live close. haha it is either because the guys at my school are stupid or i just am attracted to those corny small town boys. lol. well i am going to go try and get some sleep before church tomorrow. night all who might read this.

monica

it has been a very long time

wow....it has been more then a year and a half....reading my old blogs i feel so stupid and immature...well such is life. we live and we learn and we grow. i am now a senior, which is pretty sweet. hasn't really sunk in yet but thats okay. i am leaving for camp tomorrow so i am going to hit the hay but i will try and remember to write some later.

monica