so all guys are jerks. every guy i ever date likes someone else or they are just pathetic. for example...this last weekend my boyfriend was acting odd but i didn't really think anything about it until sunday night so monday morning i sent him a text and he told my friends he was going to call me that night. so last night i get a im from him and he said that he didn't want to ruin our friendship and that it wasn't me it was him and that he was worried what would happen if we didn't break up now and then he said that he loved me...but only as a friend. and then he said that he was sorry things had to turn out this way and he know i am probably hurt and sad and he is sorry. so i was in tears and i said i had to go because i couldn't stop crying and my mom noticed that something was wrong so i left. then later when i signed on there was a message from him saying that he is sorry and that he hopes i find someone to love soon.
lets just say i got like no sleep last night and my eyes were so wet this morning that make-up wouldn't stay on. it was just a ad day in general. i don't know what he broke up with me but he said he was going to call me tonight and tell me but he said he was going to do that last night and he didn't even have the guts to do that. i mean seriously he couldn't atleast call he had to take (as cumpston put it) the pathetic way out. you know that almost hurt more. we have been friends for so long but he can't even call you know that akes me feel like crap.
but one of the hardest things to deal with i think was the fact that i have liked him for so long. i think it has been on and off for about 4 years. you know how you think you might have found that one....well thats how it was for me but apprentally i was wrong. guys just suck. (well i will excuse evan from this, he doesn't count)
i guess the one thing i wish after all of this is that i didn't still love him. even though he doesn't want to be together i still atleast want to be his friend. if that is all i can get then that works for me....and at the same time i feel like that i should just treat him like crap and ignore him. who knows what will happen. guess we will know this weekend.
but i am going to go for now because this is just making me feel bad writing this. maybe one day i will be enough for a guy.
2 comments:
Hey-
I hope you get to feeling better! If there's anything I can do just let me know. Anything.
I love ya and you're in my prayers.
well in my personal opinion the reason you excluded evan was because he isn't a guy! lol And you always know i'm here for you and that I love you more than any boy ever will.
Bri
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