someone

i wish i knew what to say. all i want to do is scream at the top of my lungs till i can't breathe. and then when i start to tink about that all i want to do is cry. cry until i can't cry anymore. until i think i am going to just stop working. but i can't seem to let myself do that. i can't because i don' know who will be there to help me pick all the pieces back up. i don't know who can just hold me and comfort me while i cry. i need to be with someone who will be there with me through all of it. someone that will hold me close and let me drop all the pieces i am trying to hold together. and then help my put them back together again once i am done. someone who won't leave me to figure it out alone. i just wish i knew exactly who that person was. there is one i wish it was, but i am afarid to let my real feelings show because i don't want to scare them away. i care about them too much. now i just need to figure out what to do. because if i don't find that someone soon. then i will be all alone with all the pieces all around me.