i still don't think it has really hit yet. i mean i haven't really thrown a fit, or cried, or anything but tell some people that i was leaving. wow this has been a long week. i am typing though because it did hit me tonight. i don't think i will ever really fit in again down here. some of my friends i told them i was moving and they just completely stopped talking to me. it hurts, but i know that i will never be part of the group with my youth group friends once i leave. i won't be here for all the small things that happen and the only way i really can stay connected with them is messenger. and that doesn't mean a lot since some of them barely say anything on messenger anyways. it hasn't really set in that it is moving...or maybe it has and i am just choosing to ignore it and let it all build up. i am good at that. i think it will be bad when i see tyler. he was the only one who saw any real emotion from me and i feel bad for him if he is the one there when it does. bu i like to keep my emotions somewhat hidden. saddness is a big one. so i will probably hold it in and wait till i am alone. and i will pull myself back together like always.
but for now im just going to make the best out of this week, tomorrow david, ashley?, jake, and brianna are coming over. it should be interesting for bri. since she doesn't really know any of them. so we will see. well i am going to go. briann is here to stay the night. bye all!!
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